I was flipping through an old issue of House Beautiful and it made me excited to decorate my future house.The dance invitational was amazingly good and ellen being on company makes it even better!

A few nights ago, we went out to eat at this chinese resturant. Our waiter was grumpy and he didnt smile once. Then he looked even more irritated when my mom's fortune cookie was fortuneless and she asked for another one. oh well. here's mine:

junky little 50 cent toys from those machines are so much fun.

It's chilly outside.

i feel bad for the top lonely pea.
all the other peas have friends.

and just because..

life feels peculiar at the moment and i dont quite understand it.
Feeling very tired, school is dreadful,the weather is gloomy, headaches wont go away, and no good songs play on the radio in the morning.

last night, i drove to ellen's house(my mom sat next to me though). not that i needed to because just walking to her house takes 18 seconds. But i gave her something and had a nice chat with her mom about stone vs plastic earings. I drove to Albertsons on the real road and encountered real cars in motion, pedestrians, and traffic lights! I felt so proud of myself.


If only i had wings and i could fly into the clouds and roll around in the white fluffiness and watch everyone down below.

So yesterday was my 16th birthday. I feel sorta old and i wish i took drivers ed alot ealier because i could be driving around by now.I keep on having disturbing dreams and alot of things in my dreams end up happening in real life. which is quite creepy.

Thanks everyone for all the wonderful gifts/notes/cards/drawings and just being so nice. It really made my day. <3

The ski trip to Snow Summit was a lot of fun! It all began on wednesday morning.
Our cabin/condo was actually pretty big and cozy.
We went skiing everyday and watched a movie every night.

One night, we went into the windy dark creepy woods to gather firewood with her dad. It was about 15 degrees outside. Ellen and I were huddling together trying to pick up wood when all of a sudden a wooden gate starts creeking and it slams shut..
Ellen lit the fire but it burst into a huge flame and almost burned her face off. It was scary.

During our skiing adventures, at one point, i lost control of the skiis and i crashed into a fence. I hoped the plastic fencing would stop me but it didnt. So i slid about 30 feet after that into dirt and hay and my foot got stuck in a ditch. I stayed away from that area for the rest of the time.. We met a nice instuctor named Paul who taught us about pressure,edging and steering.

On the last night, it snowed! We went skiing again in the morning and ellen's mom assured us we would be fine going down summit run. Boy was she wrong. The ski lift went super fast above a woody hill and was about 15 mintues long. At the top, the wind blew directly at us and was so strong and knocked everyone off their skiis/boards. It was painful and everything was white and blurry. It was like a small blizzard which felt like tiny icy needles stabbing into your face. Luckily, we found an old lounge area and sat down and drank water while we this girl came in crying and her hands were bleeding(from frostbite).

The ski lift monitor girl let us go down instead of skiing down. I sat between ellen and these 2 tiny kids. The wind was blowing hard and it was like a dangerous cold disneyland ride. I asked the 2 little kids if they were okay. They nodded. Then i turned to ellen,who was looking even more miserable and asked her.

The car ride back took about 5 hours..even thought it was only suposed to take 1.5 hours. We listened to our ipods the whole way back. Due to the icy roads with snow, we had to put chains on the car and go really slow. Then all these accidents slowed us down even more. Then traffic slowed us even more down.

window view
Friday morning
balcony

living room/loft

Car ride through riverside

I felt quite lazy today. perhaps a bit slugglish as well.

Sitting in the sun reading huck finn in the afternoon and

sitting by the fire watching pride and prejudice at night.

I became a little delusional after a while.

I stared at the word "been" and i couldnt recognize it.

Beeeeeen?
It sounded like bean.

The 2 "e"s looked funny next to each other.

The more i thought about it, the more confused i became.
So i stopped.

i feel so much better now that i've gotton some homework done.(i finished mao zedong's portrait..now i just have to do research and memorize it all)

Today, my sister and i made the most wonderful smoothie.
I'll share the recipe with you: -blend frozen blueberries,raspberries and strawberries with vanilla yogurt,soy milk,and a banana. Then push the SMOOTHIE blend button. Pour in a glass, stick some cheap little umbrellas and plastic mermaids and VOILA!

As much as i love winter break, i have so much work to catch up on.. :(
Well i hope everyone had a wonderful christmas!
anddd, i got my permit yesterday!
Except i was "driving" in my neighborhood and drove onto a sidewalk.

Happy Holidays everyone!

"it loved to happen" -marcus aurelius

note: all new york pictures were taken by my sister.
[she hogged the camera the entire trip]

W i n t e r B r e a k !

Last night, Ellen and I spent 4-5 hours baking frantically. Our gingerbread men have been ressurected at last! While they baked, i walked Jack..again.Then at sundown we lit her menorah and i did all the lighting(all by myself)! We said a prayer(more like i tried to repeat what she said) and it was very lovely.

Later, people came for the party. Baja Fresh! While eating tacos, guacamole, chips, rice, and beans, we discussed our favorite books. :- )

to ellen. xxoo kyle ;- )

today was very.eventful.

After deciding I needed to go outside, I ran over to ellen's house, greeted her brother,chatted with her mom, then spent the next hour jogging/walking with jack.

I climbed to the top of the highest point in the preserves and just sat there for a quite a long time watching the tiny cars go by,staring at this church, and watching little blue birds play in cactus, and thinking.

Meusem of Natural History

boat view from ellis islandyou do not want to know how lost i got in the metropolitan meusem.

Empire state building

Last night, my dad told me all these stories and legends about Genghis Kahn and him(my dad) growing up and being taken away by communists. It was quite intresting.

Genghis Kahn.1162-1167 -a powerful mongolian conquerer. "The Mongol Empire ended up ruling, or at least briefly conquering, large parts of modern day China, Mongolia, Russia, Azerbaijan, Armenia, Georgia, Iraq, Iran, Turkey, Kazakhstan, Kyrgyzstan, Uzbekistan, Pakistan, Tajikistan, Afghanistan, Turkmenistan, Moldova, and Kuwait."

and being 1/8th mongolian-this is all so exciting. Why didnt my grandma tell me she's half mongolian until this summer..

Drew this during the second fine arts assembly.

Happy belated birthday leah!<33

I spent all last night memorizing Annabel Lee by Edgar Allen Poe. Horray- 15 extra points for me.

Last Saturday, we worked on our chinese skit project. Chris, Brendan, Brian, Marvel, Jamie, Roberta and I all went to Anna's lovely house to film it. From 11 am- 9 pm we: watched hurcules, drove to a park, ate a whole lota food her parents bought for us, oh and did the project. Its pretty much like a sniper movie with guns, a wooden ax and shooting scenes. Im really looking forward to seeing the final thing!!

As i walked through the parking lot today , i recogized Mr. Granger's car but i didnt recognize him because his hair got shaved, and was wearing this nerdy but little nice vest. But he waved and i saw it was him. I miss house class, and speaking of house classes.. how the heck did miss pandhi win teacher of the week. this is a fraud! and outrage!!

speaking of mr granger..

"I have loved the stars too fondly
to be fearful of the night."

silhouette of the elephant.

Albertsons didnt have bisquick for some reason on Sunday, so as i pondered over why, i noticed a pretty box and decided i should try a new brand of pancake mix. When i got home, i felt a strange urge to clean the whole kitchen. So i did. And while i dug through the dusty probably rat filled old cabinets, i found 3 nice dinner ware things. A cooking pot type of thing and 2 plates-Those are going into my future house!

wheeeee.