Morning: my driving instuctor came and i drove around lake forest, woodbridge, and northwood for 2 hours. Although he smelled of peanuts, sweat, and carpet, ate sunflower seeds, breathed loudly,and scratched himself in akward places, he was pretty nice. We even watch the same tv shows!

Noon: walked to ellens house for a little partay. We went upstairs to eat cake and talk. Soon, we hear little footsteps running up the stairs and its jack!(4 year old boy who visits often)

Ellen went downstairs to change(we were going bike riding soon) while i chatted and played with Jack who insists that "strangers live far away"

Jack is actually Veruca Salt's lost brother who has unfortuntely also turned into a huge blueberry.

after spinning around in circles for 5 mintues straight with the beanbag chair, he explained to me all the differnt kinds of oww-ies. Small owwie. medium owwie. and big owwie.

we then played cashier

then dinosaurs

rode to the new lower playground park!
ps to little children : if your gonna to curse, at least spell it right.

driving a real car in the morning

riding a bike at noon

and driving a plastic firetruck in the afternoon

i've reduced my style of transportation quickly

we rode to starbucks and got more iced tea.
green for ellen.
passion for me.

we visited the upper playground, swung on the swings, and ran around the field like lunatics
she looks a a ghost

at least 20 hours have been spent on these swings these past 6 years

went to the jazzuzie
watched big fish

slept

i was horrified at how many nightmares i had.
It was full of murdering and chasing and hiding and panicking.

in the morning we locked the door(just in case the murderer came in real life..) we made pancakes. ate them. and watched gilmore girls and full house and parts of harry and his bucket of dinosaurs, and dora the explorer.

"Dreams! in their vivid colouring of life,

as in that fleeting, shadowy, misty strife

of semblance with reality, which brings

to the delirious eye, more lovely things

of paradise and love- and all our own!

than young hope in his sunniest hour hath known"

a layered rock cake?

FINALS are over !
no more last minute craming! no more panicking! no more scantrons!

pile of drawings

"life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what your gonna get"

berries whirl and swirl

She rides her bike to my house and we ride our bikes to school and get her science binder she left in her locker. I think we both needed to be outside in the nice sunshine. On a bench outside albertsons, we sit and panic about finals, drink iced tea and eat chocolate chip cookies while not being able to stop laughing hysterically about things that arent even that funny.

i do think ants are a nuisance. I was just about to put my fish sticks into the toaster oven when i noticed a trail of ants coming through the cabinet, across the counter, and onto the toaster oven. I thought i should probably kill them all, but i didnt. so i just poped my food in and watched the ants sizzle and run around wildy.

this also happened with the microwave. So i turned it on and when i opened the door, all of them disappeared! I guess they dissolved or something.

I was flipping through an old issue of House Beautiful and it made me excited to decorate my future house.The dance invitational was amazingly good and ellen being on company makes it even better!

A few nights ago, we went out to eat at this chinese resturant. Our waiter was grumpy and he didnt smile once. Then he looked even more irritated when my mom's fortune cookie was fortuneless and she asked for another one. oh well. here's mine:

junky little 50 cent toys from those machines are so much fun.

It's chilly outside.

i feel bad for the top lonely pea.
all the other peas have friends.

and just because..

life feels peculiar at the moment and i dont quite understand it.
Feeling very tired, school is dreadful,the weather is gloomy, headaches wont go away, and no good songs play on the radio in the morning.

last night, i drove to ellen's house(my mom sat next to me though). not that i needed to because just walking to her house takes 18 seconds. But i gave her something and had a nice chat with her mom about stone vs plastic earings. I drove to Albertsons on the real road and encountered real cars in motion, pedestrians, and traffic lights! I felt so proud of myself.


If only i had wings and i could fly into the clouds and roll around in the white fluffiness and watch everyone down below.

So yesterday was my 16th birthday. I feel sorta old and i wish i took drivers ed alot ealier because i could be driving around by now.I keep on having disturbing dreams and alot of things in my dreams end up happening in real life. which is quite creepy.

Thanks everyone for all the wonderful gifts/notes/cards/drawings and just being so nice. It really made my day. <3

The ski trip to Snow Summit was a lot of fun! It all began on wednesday morning.
Our cabin/condo was actually pretty big and cozy.
We went skiing everyday and watched a movie every night.

One night, we went into the windy dark creepy woods to gather firewood with her dad. It was about 15 degrees outside. Ellen and I were huddling together trying to pick up wood when all of a sudden a wooden gate starts creeking and it slams shut..
Ellen lit the fire but it burst into a huge flame and almost burned her face off. It was scary.

During our skiing adventures, at one point, i lost control of the skiis and i crashed into a fence. I hoped the plastic fencing would stop me but it didnt. So i slid about 30 feet after that into dirt and hay and my foot got stuck in a ditch. I stayed away from that area for the rest of the time.. We met a nice instuctor named Paul who taught us about pressure,edging and steering.

On the last night, it snowed! We went skiing again in the morning and ellen's mom assured us we would be fine going down summit run. Boy was she wrong. The ski lift went super fast above a woody hill and was about 15 mintues long. At the top, the wind blew directly at us and was so strong and knocked everyone off their skiis/boards. It was painful and everything was white and blurry. It was like a small blizzard which felt like tiny icy needles stabbing into your face. Luckily, we found an old lounge area and sat down and drank water while we this girl came in crying and her hands were bleeding(from frostbite).

The ski lift monitor girl let us go down instead of skiing down. I sat between ellen and these 2 tiny kids. The wind was blowing hard and it was like a dangerous cold disneyland ride. I asked the 2 little kids if they were okay. They nodded. Then i turned to ellen,who was looking even more miserable and asked her.

The car ride back took about 5 hours..even thought it was only suposed to take 1.5 hours. We listened to our ipods the whole way back. Due to the icy roads with snow, we had to put chains on the car and go really slow. Then all these accidents slowed us down even more. Then traffic slowed us even more down.

window view
Friday morning
balcony

living room/loft

Car ride through riverside